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I saw a new therapist tonight. The practice is interesting. The office practices a form of therapy with which I was previously unfamiliar, but I think it could be useful to me. The whole idea is to externalize the problem. In fact, the practice has a motto: "The person is not the problem; the problem is the problem." That really resonates with me.

Tonight's session was (as a first session always is) mostly going over history and how the problem (in particular, we're working on my self-confidence issues) has affected me over the years. In the future, though, we'll be concentrating on the opposite tack. We'll be discussing my skills, talents, etc., and in this way "shrink" the self-confidence problem.

I think it will be interesting, and I'm curious to see how it goes.

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In the meantime, my head feels like it's starting to "level out" from the Lexapro withdrawal. I've still been cranky and on edge the last couple of days, but it's as likely to be hormones as anything else (possibly more on this later), and doesn't feel hugely overwhelming and all-encompassing as it did last week. I feel like within a short time, I'll be able to get a better view of things, and see what the world looks like through my non-medicated mind, so I can decide whether it's best to stay off and chalk my need for them up to PPD and its after-effects, or go back on indefinitely because the need for them originates deeper than just my 2008 mental state.