dmsj: (fireworks)
( Jul. 6th, 2009 03:58 pm)
Things I/we did:

* packed up Buggie's closet, the remaining books in the attic (well, O did that), more kitchen stuff, some desk stuff
* sold one of O's guitars and took away more stuff for Goodwill
* attended a 4th of July gathering, wherein I was reminded how much I don't like being around people who are drinking and not minding their children (but did manage to enjoy some of the company there, anyway)
* took Buggie to a playgroup
* started to feel like myself again, proving (again) that yes, Life Is Better when I'm on Lexapro
* ate more sweets than I should have
* baked bread
* took a meal to a couple of new mommies I know, and saw their teeny-tiny little girl
* dishes, laundry, assorted miscellanea & mundania
* cuddled with my husband
* played with my little boy

Things I/we did not do:

* smack the living daylights out of the child who tried to kick my son, or yell at the people who were drinking and setting off firecrackers
* get out to the house to take measurements (not for lack of trying, mind you)
* do as much packing as I'd have liked
* go home to Ithaca, as I'd really love to be able to do one of these weekends soon
dmsj: (gnome)
( Jun. 29th, 2009 08:17 pm)
I saw a new therapist tonight. The practice is interesting. The office practices a form of therapy with which I was previously unfamiliar, but I think it could be useful to me. The whole idea is to externalize the problem. In fact, the practice has a motto: "The person is not the problem; the problem is the problem." That really resonates with me.

Tonight's session was (as a first session always is) mostly going over history and how the problem (in particular, we're working on my self-confidence issues) has affected me over the years. In the future, though, we'll be concentrating on the opposite tack. We'll be discussing my skills, talents, etc., and in this way "shrink" the self-confidence problem.

I think it will be interesting, and I'm curious to see how it goes.

In the meantime, my head feels like it's starting to "level out" from the Lexapro withdrawal. I've still been cranky and on edge the last couple of days, but it's as likely to be hormones as anything else (possibly more on this later), and doesn't feel hugely overwhelming and all-encompassing as it did last week. I feel like within a short time, I'll be able to get a better view of things, and see what the world looks like through my non-medicated mind, so I can decide whether it's best to stay off and chalk my need for them up to PPD and its after-effects, or go back on indefinitely because the need for them originates deeper than just my 2008 mental state.


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