dmsj: (lilacs)
( Jun. 2nd, 2011 02:45 pm)
Post a comment, and I will reply with a reason why I think you're great. In return, you have to post this same meme on your blog and comment for other people.
dmsj: (hellonurse)
( May. 24th, 2011 04:43 pm)
And a killer sinus infection. No wonder I've been so miserable!
#1. Does anyone have a recommendation of Wii remote chargers that actually WORK and don't suck? We've had two like this from CTA. We returned the first one because it quit working really quickly. Now, maybe 8 or 9 months later, the replacement (which is an updated model because... the first one sucked) also doesn't work properly. :/

#2. I agree with those who've said that the gameplay in Lego Harry Potter is really good. It rates up there with Lego Star Wars, at the very least - I haven't decided which one I actually like more on a strictly mechanics level. (I am biased toward HP rather than SW on a personal level because I actually KNOW the stories a whole lot better.) However... the Wii version of this game is glitchy as HELL. In Year 2 alone, we have had to restart levels three times because something got put into the wrong place and could not be moved from there. And it's not just us - there are reports all over the place of glitches like this. You'd think with the huge delays in its release, they would've had a chance to iron out the kinks before it finally came out!

Don't get me wrong - I am enjoying the Lego Harry Potter. It's just frustrating and annoying to have waited so long for what is still a pretty buggy product.
dmsj: (reading)
( Apr. 18th, 2010 02:34 pm)
I'm sure I've done this before, but ...

Bold the ones you've read COMPLETELY, italicize the ones you've read part of. Watching the movie or the cartoon doesn't count. Abridged versions don't count either. BTW, according to the BBC if you've read 7 of these, you are above the average.

Clicky )

I should build my "To Read" list from this - there are a number of books on here that I haven't read but would like to. While 7 is "average," I'm kind of ashamed that I'm only at 16. Note, btw, that all the italicized (save for The Bible) books are ones I was assigned to read in school but only ever skimmed. Some of these, I would like to try again now that I could truly appreciate them.
Here we are again, back at my in-laws' place in southwestern Florida. This week has been a roller-coaster ride, not only for us but for all those closest to us. It was supposed to be a vacation, one which started last Sunday, but everything got all muddled up around the middle of last week.

It started with a telephone interview for a job I very much wanted. The interview went very well, and they asked me to come to Bethesda for an in-person interview. Had it happened, that interview would have taken place yesterday. Instead, I spent yesterday (and the day before yesterday, as well as today) driving my way back down the coast from our vacation in upstate New York. The organization wanted someone to start far sooner than I could have managed to relocate my family from Florida and the majority of our stuff from storage in New York. One potential new beginning, ended.

Fast forward, then, to Sunday night. We were due to leave central New York the following morning, making a quick stop in western New York before beginning the trek south. This is where the real turmoil began. I don't know why it was so much harder to say goodbye this time. Perhaps it's that my son (now 2 1/4 years old) is so much more verbal than he was when we last visited, and was so vocal about his goodbyes and how much he missed his grandma after we parted ways. Or perhaps it's that his grandma (my mother), broke down sooner than usual - while she was still in my arms, sharing a farewell hug. Whatever the cause, I was a wreck, and I was convinced that I simply could not return to Florida. Hours later, after he held me as I sobbed, my husband had agreed to contact his former employer in western New York, and ask for his old job back - the job he hated, the job we had agreed was going to be an absolute last resort. But, my emotionally-charged self insisted, perhaps after 7 months, we were at the stage of "last resort."

Before we left our motel room the next morning, my husband had the name of someone to talk to in a different department from the one he left. It was in a whole different building, and I was convinced it would be better. This would be the new beginning we've been needing. Why, then, did all signs seem to be pointing against it? We turned onto the Thruway, and my eye caught the sign in the other direction, saying, "Wrong Way." My stomach felt queasy all morning and afternoon, and when he called me from the office building, the words, "So I appear to have a job," did not fill me with elation. Nor were they particularly enthusiastic in tone.

Yet it wasn't until hours later - after visiting with a friend and suffering a near-panic-attack when my husband told me it was snowing outside, and after utterly failing to find anything remotely within our price range for apartments - that I finally said to him, "I don't want this." All day, I kept shaking my head, seemingly at random. In truth, I was reacting to the myriad thoughts flitting through my head. Desperate though I am to get on our feet again, this was another false start.

Now, this evening, we've arrived back to our temporary home, armed with to-do lists and with goals firmly in our minds. Somewhere, there is a new beginning waiting for us. Sometime, and I hope it will be soon, we will open the right door, and we'll start to get our lives under our own control again.
This is one crazy-assed road I've been on for the past 24 hours. Last night was mostly composed of sobbing on the floor of the motel room, cuddling with O, letting him hold me as I sobbed uncontrollably, and saying lots of, "I can't do this!" In the end, we agreed that he would call his former employer (pre-Xerox) and ask what opportunities might be available. He did that this morning, got a name for someone in a department that was hiring, and met with him. He was offered a job.

We made a snap decision, and started telling people that we were moving back here. While talking to Beth, though, I became more and more aware that ... this doesn't feel right. This isn't where either of us wants to be, the job isn't one he wants to take, and we're just FINALLY starting to see results in FL. Plus, there's a job fair in Tampa next month, so that holds more potential, too.

If all this wasn't enough... the job would barely pay more than O makes on unemployment (about 1/2 what he made at Xerox), and living anyplace that wouldn't require at least a 30-45 minute commute would cost more than we could afford or be in neighborhoods we feel safe in. Plus, he was miserable there. Not so much in the second department he was in, but he still wasn't himself.

We aren't saying no to the job. Not yet. But we're no longer jumping at it. We are going to go ahead with our plans to drive back down to Florida, and make our decision by the end of the week. We're scared, both of us. We're scared to take it and be stuck right where we were before L was born, or worse. And we're scared that if he doesn't take it, nothing else will come along. (I'm more scared of that than he is. He has a really positive outlook, based on the fact that things were starting to look up for us, before we took this vacation.)

I REALLY need a vacation from this vacation. I'm actually looking forward to the 3 days in the car on the way back because it will be more relaxing than what the end of this vacation has been.

(Comments disabled because there are ALREADY too many conflicting thoughts in my head, and O and I just need to figure this all out for ourselves.)
dmsj: (working)
( Mar. 19th, 2010 08:17 pm)
E-mail received today, re: my aforementioned interview )

Logistics got in the way again. Following the schedule she would need, I would be in Maryland until Friday, drive for two days back to Florida... to then pack everything up and be moved to Maryland by the following Tuesday. That's just not possible.

Job hunting from out-of-state is hard. :/

Right now, I'm leaning towards continuing work on our own business plan while also searching for work in FL itself. I think that will be easier to manage. I don't want to close any doors, obviously, but that is my current feeling.
dmsj: (writing)
( Mar. 18th, 2010 08:17 am)
I'm only skimming at best until we're back in FL. This goes for LJ, DW, and FB, and I'm not really checking Twitter at all. So if there's something you want me to know about, e-mail or text is the best way. I also check my own FB messages/wall - I'm just not reading everyone's statuses at the moment.

I'll be back to my usual 'net-addicted self next weekend, I imagine. ;)
For those who don't know, this is my FAVORITE book. When I found out they were doing a movie, I was ecstatic. And then terrified because they were sure to break it.

I don't want to give many spoilers here because I know a lot of you haven't seen it yet, but have read the book. Suffice it to say, though ... it's worth seeing. It did not make me sob the way the book does (every single time I read it!), and there was a lot left out (because there has to be, honestly)... but it is still a truly beautiful story.


And now I want to re-read the book, for what I believe will be my 4th time, because I want to revisit all the scenes that got cut out from the movie version. :)
dmsj: (run)
( Feb. 11th, 2010 02:23 pm)
We're still carless. The theory was that it was probably the serpentine belt. It was... and also the two parts next to it. So instead of a $35 easy-fix, it's a $300+ complicated fix that requires parts no one in town has. Remind me not to buy another Subaru/other foreign car next time around. :P Earliest it'll be ready is tomorrow, if they can get the parts by then.

In the meantime, though I'm honestly not missing it very much. I am absolutely WIPED out today. All the recent stress has caught up to me in the form of a head-cold and major ass-kicking fatigue. On the plus side, I've gotten a lot of job-hunting done (thanks mostly to Oliver, who's helped me find most of the things to which I've applied, and helped me to optimize my job search engines).

I did have to cancel my doctor's appointment, which is annoying. And I'd really like to be able to get to the library for some new DVDs (both for us and for Liam), but today I'm pretty content to just sit on the couch and use my computer or read.

If the car is gone all weekend, though, I expect I'll change my tune. :P
dmsj: (baby)
( Feb. 7th, 2010 08:04 pm)
My dear friend Nisha had a baby at the beginning of January, the only girl in a 4-child family.

Another online friend gave birth to her rainbow baby girl 2 weeks ago.

This afternoon, [personal profile] phoenixsong and [personal profile] hkellick became parents to a darling baby boy, whom I can't wait to meet!

All these pictures and stories are SO making me have baby fever! :)
Buggie: *tugging on my arm as I sit on the couch putting on my shoes* Mommy, go away.

O: *chuckling* Hey, that's not very nice.

Buggie: Please!
dmsj: (working)
( Jan. 25th, 2010 11:49 am)
Alright, I'm getting desperate. O lost his job in July - 6 months ago. We moved to FL in August. In the past 5 months, I've had a 3-week temp assignment. And nothing else. No interviews, nothing. O has had not even a bite, either. We need a new plan. I want to move back to NY. O would rather end up in the DC area. The Boston area is also a consideration. These are the areas we're now concentrating on, all but completely abandoning the FL idea entirely because it is just not panning out.

What I am asking of my readers is this: boost our signal, please. If you know anyone in NY (specifically upstate, ideally Albany or Ithaca areas) or the DC/MD/VA areas who might be in the market for an part-time office assistant/writer/editor (any or all of the above, and full-time will be considered, for the right position) and/or a jack-of-all-trades IT guy who specializes in web design, social media marketing, and UNIX administration... send them our way, please.

Feel free to repost this, ideally with a link back to this post, or copy it into an e-mail to send out to everyone you know, or whatever you need to do to get the word out.

A couple of you have already responded to similar request I put out via e-mail, and I thank you wholeheartedly for your help. But the further we can spread the word, the more likely it is that the message will reach the right ears and eyes.

dmsj: (me)
( Jan. 22nd, 2010 03:44 pm)
"I know that 2009 was pretty horrid for a lot of people. One way we might make 2010 a bit better is to spread some love around. So if you care to reply to this post I will give you a response of something I like about you.

If you like participating in these sorts of things and want to repost this in your LJ that'd be fun, too."
dmsj: (Christmas tree)
( Dec. 25th, 2009 05:34 pm)
Cut because there are quite a few pics in here )

And now it's time for Christmas dinner! I hope you're all having a magical holiday!
dmsj: (me)
( Dec. 23rd, 2009 12:45 pm)
2009 brought a lot of change - some good, some way less than good.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Went through most of the process of buying a house, moved out of NYS, visited Florida, drove down the East coast, got a paid writing gig.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I made any. Generally speaking, I'd rather just work on continually setting goals for myself, rather than making yearly resolutions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My oldest friend had a little girl in late-August.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
We had to put my eldest cat to sleep after he went feral and attacked Oliver.

5. What countries did you visit?
Canada, just once, back in January

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
a job

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 8th - it was when [personal profile] kolys lost his job

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
not (completely) falling apart when our lives got turned upside down

9. What was your biggest failure?
the times when I've lost my temper or said things that were unkind

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nothing major

11. What were the best things you bought?
nothing is immediately springing to mind

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My husband, for being so supportive and loving, and for being such a wonderful daddy.
All of my friends and family who supported us when times got difficult, and those who helped us to move all our stuff into storage before we moved out of state.
My in-laws, for allowing us to use their vacation home until we can get on our feet.
The friends and family who helped us during the home-buying process.
My son, for being the smart and amazing little guy he is!

13. Whose behavior appalled you?
Xerox - for allowing their bureaucracy to totally contradict itself and defy logic

14. Where did most of your money go?

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
buying our first home

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
I can't honestly think of one.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Hmm... some of each.
ii. thinner or fatter? About the same, I think. Maybe a little thinner.
iii. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Spent time with my family and friends in NY.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
focusing on the negative

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my boys, in our PJs, watching Christmas specials on TV and relaxing around the house with yummy snacks and each other's company.

21. Why is there no Question 21?
I don't know; I didn't write the questions.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I fell in love with places, and remained in love with people.

23. How many one-night stands?

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Veronica Mars

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I'm still very bitter with Xerox, but I think I'm starting to let it go.

26. What was the best book you read?
The Night Listener by Armistead Maupin, though I'm also really enjoying the one I just started today: Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmm - I don't know as though I made any musical discoveries this year! I surprised myself recently by enjoying Taylor Swift's single and there have been other things I've liked... but nothing stands out, which is really weird!

28. What did you want and get?
a gorgeous new camera for my birthday, a healthy and mostly-happy family, a visit from my mom, a new spiritual-home, someplace to stay when O lost his job

29. What did you want and not get?
a job (well, several jobs, really), a house, a new (to us) car

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
I don't see many films, honestly, but Up was especially good

31. What did you do on your birthday?
My husband took me out to dinner at a restaurant on the beach, which our son spent the evening with a babysitter

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Mostly - comfortable and casual. I was a SAHM most of the year, and often didn't leave my house other than for walks with the Bug.

34. What kept you sane?
My boys, writing.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Edward Cullen from the books - I don't find Robert Patinson all that attractive, but the character ... Mmmm. :) Also, I kinda had a crush on Jason Dohring.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
It's a tie between health care reform and gay marriage rights

37. Who did you miss?
In the last part of the year, almost everyone.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I don't think I would claim ONE person as the best, but I've met some great folks down here - all from my church.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
You just never know.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
If you find somebody to love in this world
You better hang on tooth and nail
The wolf is always at the door
In a New York Minute
Everything can change
In a New York Minute
Things can get a little strange
dmsj: (2years)
( Dec. 17th, 2009 01:16 pm)
Our little boy is quite a talker. I've mentioned before that he knows the names of a bunch of different dinosaurs, all his numbers and letters (and he's starting to get them in order now, too - especially if we sign them for him), and lots of shapes and colors. He amazes me.

But sometimes, he just cracks me up, and I wanted to share some of his funny or unique phrases and pronunciations.

* "Sorry, Liam foot!" when he stubs his toe on something, or just "Sorry, Liam!" when he in some other way bumps himself on something.

* "2,4,5 - Ready or Not - SURPRISE!" (sometimes it also includes "Habby Dirthday!")

* His frequent lunch-on-the-go of cheese, pickles, and olives has become known as "oh my," because of a silly joke I made one day recently when he was having it.

* "Hung'y Herbivores!" (his favorite song from Dinosaur Train) ... which now comes complete with little munching sounds when he plays with his new dino playset

* "beach booms" (aka waves in the ocean)

* "bibbit bibbit" (frog noise)

* "G'een agglepas, gyue agglepas." (green pacifier, blue pacifer)

* "Mommy/Daddy/Grandma/ball/other toy or object, c'mere!" (funniest when it's said to an animal or inanimate object)

* "gyeb" = bread

* "yum"/"yee-um" = Liam

I think I'm going to start posting these periodically and make a collection of them, as there are so many things we just don't want to forget!
dmsj: (working)
( Dec. 8th, 2009 01:27 pm)
At this point, we're not moving to CA. O got an automated e-mail last night, telling him he didn't get the job he'd interviewed for. He found 2 others on their site this morning (and I found one as well, but mine is in their DC-area office, so obviously we couldn't both accept offers), and e-mailed his friend again.

It seems like we're spending an awful lot of time at square one. :P From here, though, we just redouble our efforts in the DC-area, the RTP area, and here in FL until something eventually pans out. It will, sooner or later.
My friends in Western MA are trying to rehome two female ferrets. More information here, if you're interested.
I'm not sure the "one year in Florida" plan is actually going to come to fruition. We've both changed our focus a little since coming back from NY and me starting this temp. job and such. It started with a resume-request from one of O's friends, for a position in Palo Alto, CA. This is the same company he was considering during the summer, but we ruled it out because of location. Now, however, we're starting to wonder if we need to change location because let's face it - things have not been all that promising for us here in Florida. We'd both been hoping this possible position was in the company's DC-area office, but it turned out to also be in CA.

However, the company does have a similar (though not identical) position in their DC office. This realization got some wheels turning for both of us, and we're both feeling like maybe that area is the way to go. If anywhere is going to have a decent job market at all, it's going to be that area first. And we have friends there. And the seasons, while much milder than NY, still change there. And it's closer to NY. And there are long-term opportunities there in fields we both desperately want to get into.

And it's not on the west coast, which is looking to be our other major option. If we have to do that, we will. But neither of us want to, particularly. (The thought of it still makes me want to cry; I'm just afraid of closing any doors right now.)

I am posting this as a desperate plea for prayers/positive thoughts/etc. Please keep us in your thoughts in the coming weeks as we try to put this new plan in motion. Please pray that this works out for us in the way we are hoping. I am praying as hard as I can, myself.
dmsj: (twolumps_scream)
( Nov. 19th, 2009 07:52 am)
I left the keys in the ignition last night, and not fully turned off. The car won't start this morning. Waiting for Geico's roadside assistance folks to come help. Great impression to make during my first week of work, no?

dmsj: (hellonurse)
( Nov. 16th, 2009 07:41 pm)
Does anyone have a good remedy for antibiotic-induced diarrhea in a toddler? Filling him up with yogurt a couple times a day for the probiotics is not doing the trick. Not even close, in fact.
dmsj: (autumn)
( Nov. 8th, 2009 07:15 pm)
Right now I'm sitting in a kind-of-scary-but-will-suffice-for-one-night hotel room near Rochester, while L and O are out walking off some of L's excess energy before bedtime routine begins. The visit has been a whirlwind of family and friends, and I have loved every second of it. We fly back tomorrow afternoon, and we're planning to spend the morning at the museum before we head to the airport.

We spent the first part of the visit in Ithaca (after driving down from Rochester the morning after we flew in). Wednesday was spent with my mom, Thursday with Gramma, Sissy & Ken (and mom), and then Friday morning we went to Museum of the Earth so Liam could look at and play with the dinosaurs there. After some computer repair work, we drove back to Rochester, where I met up with a couple of RWCC friends and O put L to bed at our friends' house, where we were staying for the weekend. Yesterday was spent in Victor with my Bethy & her family, and then John & his new girlfriend, and her newborn baby. Then today we spent a little more time with the Houstons (with whom we were staying), and L got to play with Claire all morning and part of the afternoon. A quick stop at our storage unit, another one at Wegmans, and that brings us to now.

This has been so wonderful, and (so far at least) not as bittersweet as I had been expecting. I may feel differently when we get to the airport tomorrow and/or when we get back to FL, but even if I do, it was worth it. I needed this taste of autumn, this time with my loved ones, and this break from the day-to-day routine. Yes, it was expensive, at a time when we need to be frugal... but it's only going to get more expensive from here. This was the last week we could do it without being in the holiday season, and after mid-December, we'd have been paying for 3 tickets instead of 2.

In a couple of days, it will be back to the grind of sending out resumes, etc. Hopefully the cold (no fever or anything, just a cough and runny nose) L has picked up along the way will wait until after our travels to catch up with O & I. I'm sort of hoping that this will work like solving a puzzle or writing a difficult paper - that taking a break from the job-hunt, etc., will have been just what we needed in order to achieve the desired result.
dmsj: (Default)
( Oct. 27th, 2009 08:36 pm)
Is anyone here any good at resume-writing/tweaking/etc., and willing to help me out with mine? I'm thinking it needs some extra pizazz in order to make it stand out. It definitely needs something, since I've been looking for 2 months and haven't even had a single interview.

I can't afford to pay much, if anything, but I could really use some help. (Feel free to send other folks my way, if you know someone.)
It's not my anniversary quite yet, but I was inspired.
dmsj: (rain)
( Oct. 15th, 2009 01:36 pm)
Remembering Caelie
dmsj: (cooking)
( Oct. 15th, 2009 11:28 am)
I adapted this recipe to suit my needs.

Applesauce, unsweetened, 1 cup
Granulated Sugar, 1 1/5 cup
Flour, all-purpose, 3 cup
Ginger, ground, .5 tsp
Cinnamon, ground, 3 tsp
Allspice, 1.5 tsp
Baking Soda, 2 tsp
Pumpkin, canned, without salt, 15 oz can
Egg, fresh, 2 large
1/2 c. egg-substitute
3/4 bag of white choc. chips
some (what we had left) dried cranberries

This makes 2 loaves. I mixed everything in one bowl, in the order stated above, stirring between items (and between each cup of flour). Since I only have one loaf pan, I'm baking one loaf at a time at 350 for 45 minutes to start out with, then will adjust as needed. (Will edit this post if the timing needs drastic adjustment). If you have two pans, you can bake for one hour at 350.
dmsj: (autumn)
( Oct. 12th, 2009 08:51 pm)
Today was pretty neutral. We didn't do much - some straightening, I went to the gym, O made chili. No particular high-points stand out to me. But neither do any particular low-points either, so I still call it a win.
dmsj: (smile!)
( Oct. 10th, 2009 08:50 pm)
You really can't go wrong with a day that is made up of library, gym, reading, mini-golf, and Panera. :)
I thought we were getting company this weekend - a distant relative of O's. Turns out, it's /next/ weekend. Annoyed as I was when I discovered the mistake, it's probably for the best. I'm feeling very mellow and keep-to-myself-y, so having someone I've never met in the house overnight wouldn't have been ideal.

Instead, I've gotten to spend the evening chilling out with either the computer or my book, and occasional cuddles from a Bug. Definitely better suited to my mood.
dmsj: (run)
( Oct. 7th, 2009 08:36 pm)
Been very active today. While O was getting ready for a meeting he had this morning (and after he left), I mopped the floors all the way through the house. I also cleaned the master bathroom, stripped the master bed and our bed and threw those sheets in the wash, and straightened (including the lanai). I also did my usual gym routine after O got home and L was napping, AND we all took a walk to/from the park before dinner.

L also gave me no struggle with naptime, which was a nice change.

And I'm now enjoying some relaxy-time, and about to put the computer aside to read more Eragon.
dmsj: (me)
( Oct. 6th, 2009 11:24 pm)
I spent some of my birthday money today. I bought myself 2 shirts and a skirt at Old Navy, all on clearance. And a bathrobe at Target, also on clearance. And 2 workout DVDs and a camera case, plus two CDs-worth of MP3s (the SK6ERS albums I didn't have yet) on Amazon.

Yay shopping that doesn't cost me any real money. :)
I got a birthday card from my mommy today, with a check enclosed. I haven't totally decided whether I want to just use it as guilt-free spending money, or if I want to save it towards an eventual dSLR camera purchase. I/we spent a small amount today on a $5 skirt for me, two pair of Bug-jammies, and dinner at Moe's. Mmm, Moe's.
As much as it may be tiring to read the same books over and over (and over... and over ...) again, I love that L has inherited our love of books. It's no wonder, really, seeing as we were both early readers and are still bookworms to this day. But still, I love having him curled up in my lap, telling me what's on each page, or having me read him the story contained within. He points out letters, numbers, animals, and random objects, and sometimes completes our sentences as we read to him. The library is one of his very favorite places to go, and books are definitely his favorite plaything.

I spent a good chunk of this morning reading him books while O was making phone calls. And when we returned from errands this afternoon, his first request was "read please."

Even when I'm beat and want to just flump and be left alone, I can't help but to smile at how much he loves to read. :)
dmsj: (catnap)
( Sep. 30th, 2009 08:53 pm)
I think a big part of the reason I get sick more often than most people is because it is almost the only time I take days "off". Today was no exception to that rule. I woke up with a sore throat, stuffy nose (and now that I think about it, I had a sinus headache last night before bed, which I have again now), and a general sense of lethargy. Seeing as neither O nor I slept well last night (L seemed to, but was REALLY cranky before naptime and slept HARD during), we just chilled around home today. I skipped the gym in favor of curling up on the couch with him and an episode of Veronica Mars, and we did nothing more strenuous than playing with Bug or cleaning up after dinner.

While I'm generally all about the go-go-go, it's sometimes nice to stop for a while. Even if it is only because I'm not feeling great.

Positivity #2: I made someone smile today, and tell me she loved me. That always makes me feel good, to know I've made a difference in someone's day, if only for a moment.
There are possibilities all around right now. The most promising is some freelancing work that O has lined up, which could turn into a long-term situation and/or even a partnership. Keep your fingers crossed on that!

I am also hopefully going to be taking on the job of volunteer editor for the church newsletter. I'll be meeting with the administrator on Sunday (unless she e-mails back and wants to get together outside of church some other time) to discuss it. Sure, it's volunteer, but it's experience and it looks good on the resume, and it'll be fun!

I also applied for a job I desperately want, last night. So please keep me in your thoughts in that regard as well!

This may or may not be the light at the end of the tunnel, but there is definitely plenty of hope and excitement in the air around here. :)
I met with another temp. agency today. She doesn't have anything immediately, but chose to bring me in anyway because she only has 2 or 3 other people in my specific geographical area, and apparently folks in this area don't like to drive. So there are at least possibilities. Yes, it's temp work (if anything comes up), but it's SOMEthing. I need that bit of encouragement because in the past week I've had THREE of the jobs I'd applied to get canceled. As O said earlier, welcome to a recession. But still, frustrating. So having a temp agency at least want to get me into their system is definitely a better direction.
Today's positive: ice cream on the beach at sunset )

There is so much happy involved here, I think I'll let the pictures (and the others from yesterday and tonight) speak for themselves. :)
I am very pleased with the amount I/we got done around the house today. I usually save housecleaning for the weekends, figuring it makes more sense to do out-of-the-house things during the week when other folks are working and therefore things are less crowded, but I guess I just felt like it today. I swept and mopped the floors, O cleaned the bathroom countertop, I did laundry. Plus I went to the gym (20 mins. of elliptical) and we got groceries. So yeah, definitely a good, productive day.

I'm feeling a little bit off right now, but I think it's migraine after-effects (yes, I did the majority of the above while fighting a migraine - but it didn't get super-bad until post-gym, thanks to hitting it earlier with the caffeine & Tylenol) and/or hormonal. I'm just kinda blah and very hyper-sensitive to stimuli (noise in particular - fun with a toddler). I'm trying not to focus on it and the negative thoughts (mostly frustration about the job hunt) it's brought with it. But then, that's the point of this exercise, right? To remember the positive in the face of the negative thoughts.
dmsj: (OMG!)
( Sep. 24th, 2009 12:40 pm)
Forgot yesterday's Daily Positivity (#6)!

That said, I suppose a lot of this covers it. Yesterday I was very thankful that L seemed to be feeling a lot better than the day before. I was also thankful for the extra snuggles that tend to come along with having a sick little boy.

(FYI, he's back on regular food as of today, and other than some congestion and occasional crankiness, you'd never know it'd ever happened.)

Will be back later with #7 - I prefer to do them at the end of the day, so I can take the opportunity to look back at the day as a whole.
Today ... was not great. Particularly because my Bug threw up hugely in the middle of the grocery store, scaring O and myself with the way he was gasping and choking. We took him to Convenient Care, though, and everything checks out. Here's hoping (PRAYING!) this was just a random occurrence and nothing at all akin to the Stomach Flu of Doom we all suffered in May 2008.

However, all that said... there is STILL positive to be found (in addition to the fact that things were no worse than they are, with regard to Bug's health). We all got our flu shots today (which is also a positive, considering the lack of insurance at the moment - though L is approved for Kid Care starting in October!), and my little trooper of a toddler did not even whimper when he was jabbed with the needle. He handled his shot better than I handled my own, in fact.

Also... I was feeling better enough today to make it to the gym for the first time since Saturday. So yeah, that's positive too!
Today's Daily Positivity came at me suddenly, from down the hall. I was reading on the couch while O gave L his bath. When he was out of the bath and in the bedroom, I could hear giggles, and silly voices (both of them) saying, "Dry dry dry!" as is one of their little Daddy-Son rituals. I knew O was rubbing L down with his towel and entertaining him in the process. Their fun and obvious love of one another made me break out in a huge smile.

I'm very blessed. :)
dmsj: (kolystar)
( Sep. 20th, 2009 09:15 pm)
Day #3:

Today I am very thankful for a long conversation with my husband about forgiveness, putting the past behind us, and giving FL a chance. We attended church again this morning (and L did great in the nursery, giving us a chance to actually pay attention to all of what was being said!), and the topic was “Making Amends, UU Style,” in honor of Rosh Hashanah. Once we were back home and L was napping, we took the opportunity to sit together and really talk about what was on each of our minds.

It was a great day overall, really, but that's the part that stands out in my mind right now as something for which I am particularly grateful.

(Note: Though Nisha's initial meme was to do this for 8 days, I'm going to try to extend it beyond that point. I'm starting with 30 days, and we'll see how it goes from there. I challenge you all to do the same!)
dmsj: (mommying)
( Sep. 19th, 2009 06:50 pm)
While in the store earlier, L was in the cart and kept leaning forward to give me hugs. Buggie hugs are one of the best parts of any day. :)
dmsj: (balance)
( Sep. 18th, 2009 07:36 pm)
Inspired by Nisha:

Daily Positivity #1:
1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this everyday for eight days without fail.
3. Tag eight (or as many as you want) of your friends to do the same.

(Note: I don't do tagging. Do it if you want, don't if you don't. I'm doing it because I need the regular reminders of goodnesses in my life, so I don't slip into focusing on the negatives. YMMV.)

Today's positivity is that I managed to drag my butt to the gym and onto the elliptical for my usual 20-minute workout, despite feeling all blah and flumpy all morning. In fact, I've been generally doing pretty well for gym-things, and I'm pretty pleased with that.
(bonus points to anyone who wants to send me a mix CD of this type of music)

I am looking for energetic instrumentals to listen to while I am both working out and reading. I have a great Energy playlist for my non-reading workouts (ie, elliptical training), but on days when I'm reading while using the stationary bike, I prefer things without lyrics to distract me. I'm thinking Blue Man Group, Combustible Edison, etc.

I already have the Audio album by Blue Man Group, several tracks by Combustible Edison (Breakfast at Denny's, Carnival of Souls, Call of the Space Siren, In the Garden of Earthly Delights, Laura's Aura, and Short Double Latte), and one song by Mushroom (The Evolution of Smells in an Underground Parking Garage... )

Any other ideas? And places I can get them cheaply (but ideally, legally)?
Wow am I tired. I hadn't been sleeping well for several nights in a row, but that's been better for the last two nights. Even still, I woke up this morning feeling like I could just roll over, close my eyes, and sleep for another several hours (and it was 9:00 at this point!). And actually, I'm the only one of the three of us who did sleep reasonably well last night. As such, it's a pretty low-key morning around here. Liam's watching an extra helping of Sesame Street this morning, while O and I hang out at our computers. We've both found a number of jobs to apply to today, though. Keep your fingers crossed for us, as we've each found at least one that is absolutely PERFECT.

Next weekend we're going to Gainesville. There's an info session for the MBA program at University of Florida. I'm going to go to that, and we'll visit with our friends who live up there. And their new baby girl!

Alright, off to deal with a StinkBug.
I need a new TV show to watch - ideally via DVDs from the library. My criteria are as follows:

1. I'm looking for "fluff," but GOOD fluff.

2. Characters must really catch my attention and have some depth. If I don't find myself "missing" them after a few days have passed, it's not a good show. Most of what I like (both in TV and books) is very character-driven.

3. Needs to be at least a few seasons old, as I'm hoping to get them from the library, as I said above.

Previous interests that would fit these criteria include Buffy/Angel, Gilmore Girls, Sports Night... and even 90120 back when I was a teenager.
My Bethy commented earlier that I've been pensive today. There are 25 minutes of "today" left, and I'm not done yet. I've spent the last half hour or so crying on, and then talking to, O about The Future. About where we want to be, what we want to be doing, and how to get there. Because that is really what everything is all about right now.

If I had my absolute ideal job, I would be doing copywriting/editing for a not-for-profit group dedicated to a cause I believe in - GLBT issues, environmental issues, AIDS or cancer research, breastfeeding awareness, etc. Life is not necessarily all about ideals, though, so I've stated other, related options, as my goals. I want to be a writer and/or I want to work for a nonprofit. (I would also accept working in the education field, though not directly as an educator of any kind.) And I've always thought that the "writer" part came first, but ... I'm not sure that it really does. After all, I can be a writer without being paid to do it. I am a writer without being paid to do it. :P

Now to move forward, finding places where these jobs are more easily found, and figuring out how to get there. Moving forward with my own goals in mind, not with a head full of "shoulds" and "what ifs."
I deleted my other post because, well... this one is going to be a clarification of what led to that. The big thing here is this: I keep finding jobs that require qualifications I don't have. And when I find those, I think, "I wish I had X, Y, or Z." But ... getting X, Y, or Z takes too long to be practical, in a lot of cases. I'd been researching the HIM/HIT programs in the area, thinking it would at /most/ take me a year to complete, hopefully less. And that would open up new doors to me that my current qualifications do not. Unfortunately, it seems like that is likely to take at least a year and a half to two years. Plus I wouldn't qualify for in-state tuition rates until I was almost done with the program, if I started this term (which is, of course, looking less and less likely). So while it's not totally ruled out, it's going on the back-burner (with so many other options and half-options) because I can't justify the time and money expenditure for something I'm not truly passionate about.

The MBA is still a possibility, though I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it full-time. It may be a matter of "wait and see," which is hard right now because so much is up in the air. My big hesitation with the MBA is financial as well. It's even /more/ of a time and money commitment, so I'm hesitant to do it unless I'm REALLY sure it's what I want.

Part of me wonders if I'm just trying to find any excuse to go back to school. And if it's about /that/, rather than really, truly furthering my career ... then no, it doesn't make any sense.

It's also somewhat about control. I can't control the job market. I can't control how long it takes for O or myself to find gainful employment. Returning to school is something I /can/ do for myself, rather than being dependent upon so many outside factors. But again, that's not a good, solid reason, either. I know the MBA makes sense in a lot of ways, but it's very overwhelming, and I'm not sure whether or not I'm ready/willing to take it on at this juncture.

And part of me is afraid of getting stuck. I don't necessarily want to keep being "just" a SAHM anymore. If O finds work before I do, then I'm afraid of feeling trapped. Afraid of stagnating. Please don't read that as, "I don't want to spend time with my son." I do. I love him. But I need a change (ironic, considering the past two months).

... I think I'm having a mid-30s crisis. Where's my shiny new sports car? :P


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